Very I’m sure my thinking all along, that every human being must have an evil side and a good side, just a matter of time, until the hand was revealed.
But my own side that sometimes I do not understand, so many thorns that I went through in my life, tears are always with me and never away from my life, sometimes I forget whether the smiles and laughter are always present with me and greet me
only one who always remember in my heart, I always say explicitly in me … do not ever do anything for the good of myself ..
that’s what I planted in my life …
continue to do anything for the good of others … Give something to make everyone smile with beautifully ….
because I want to feel beautiful smile so hard until this moment I have not been able to smile to myself ….
I always wished I could fall in love again and feel the beauty of love, but as I now ventured to reopen the heart, I felt I had to close it again, it seems love is never there for me
I thought, with I have a craving for someone that love is coming, or sheet wonderful for me, but I just feel that longing back to itself.
I know that love and longing that’s not something we can control, and I also know that love is something that requires some effort, sacrifice and sincerity
I think and I hope, someone there will understand me and my heart,
turned out to be the same, I was alone in this world ..
I always say what is in my heart and my feelings so innocently but turns out I was wrong, I look like a woman who is very ignorant in this world.
I say miss her, I thought someone there to understand and immediately drove ran to meet me and with me, it turns out … do not …. My longing utterance as the wind touched his ear without touched …
Do you know, I was so saturated with loneliness, I’m bored friends with emptiness.
I did not know I had to run where, I did not know I had to call anyone, and I do not know where the world can I raced over the world menyambutkan and hugged me warmly.
I really hope dirimulah who ran to meet me and gave me a smile, now I feel the fear Rinduku you.
I’m afraid this longing will fade as you never see me, I’m too afraid to go back like it used to be alone and to spend my time with do not care about myself, I’m afraid I do not feel the back of this beautiful world, and I’m afraid it gets dark void.
I know about myself, no one can be proud, I feel sure, was not there someone who can give a sincere love for me.
whether to get a sincere love requires the ability and have a special talent?
but why I was always proud of my principles, I felt that to get a sincere love, can not simply because it has something to support, but a sincere heart which always gives attention although only small is done, the future that would never be forgotten by anyone.
before I realized the sense of this, I can only look at pictures of you on my cell phone, let me open the hearts and eyes on a beautiful morning, when you invade my mind, a sense that all this time I hide and feelings that have been my secret, let this being back memories, beautiful memories in even the slightest sense is present and I can reveal my heart to you … you’re the one person to two of my life … to knock on the door of my heart and opened my heart … but you’re in a moment let me recap the liver and this eye again see a darkened room.
I want to close my eyes forever and menggenggap my hand, because I was afraid, back toward the emptiness is so dark, but I realized none someone by my side to give me love
Why come back someone who is just toying with me and continue to make this heart continues to beat, if in the end it is only a game …….
to
Myself
This paper I addressed to myself
so I opened my eyes, that love does not exist
Diary …..
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